I'm finding that when you really want to hear from God, He speaks. When I really seek God for nothing other than His face He reveals Himself. Suddenly, He doesn't stop talking and I love it but it's exhausting. Good thing all I have to do is rely on Him and He'll caryy me through it all. I've been having so many vivid dreams and more of a sensitivity to His guidance and it's just...great. God does bless people but when you really seek Him (not just for His blessings) just for Him He blesses you with just that. The more I make my walk about Him the more blessed it gets...and harder. I really believe this is definitely a matter of chosing your own level surrender. How much of my willingness will I give to Him? We have callings and dreams but are we willing to be a doormatt for His glory? Sometimes I think there is a tendency to have a dream that seems Godly but really has our best interests ar heart. Are we willing to be the ones tread and stomped for the benefit of others? The ones who get little, if any, praise from men? It's in God's will for some people to live to a ripe old age with a nice house and tons of kids and grandkids and they might be very surrendered, decdicated servants. There are also those who deliver powerful messages, lay their lives down and aren't remembered. I'm not saying God thinks, "I like people who suffer like this." God doesn't want people proving their love by putting themselves through hell. He wants people who are so surrendered, so committed to Him that Christ can be seen in them wherever that leads them. There is no lack of devotion on His part, there is only an unwillingness on our part to let Him have the inner most desires of our hearts. The goal of this isn't my devotion to Him but to show the world how dedicated and faithful Christ is.