well, stuff happened that I don't want to get into but the only that has kept me from going postal is the fact that God is good and that my life is His. the point of all this is to know Him and so regardless of cirumstances I seek to know Him in a new way. He is the author of peace and not of confusion but that doesn't always mean He gives answers. However, He has shown me once again that there is freedom and peace in knowing Him. I can try to expound on this but I don't feel there is much of a point right now because it's really not a matter of intellectual understanding, it's a matter of the choice to love and to trust. There's no formula here that will satiate the mind's hunger for "sense," God doesn't lower himself by trying to squeeze into the seemingly neat, secure dome of reasoning known as "common sense."