I wrote this a while ago, I was praying that God would give me a hunger and recently He has touched me, I felt like I did when I had first gotten saved. I'm seeing more and more how much He loves me, desires me and I can't help but love Him more. He has put in me a desire to settle for nothing less than the complete work of His Spirit in my life, I love to whisper to Him that I belong to Him because He loves it. I know that growth doesn't take place on the mountain tops but after months of a valley it was a welcomed respite and a renewing of my zeal for Him. If any of you are at a time when God simply seems silent, no trials, no intense experiences I encourage you to pray for hunger. You may seem to be waiting on God but it may very well be that He is waiting to hear you say, "draw me, and I will come running after You."



Will the silence
test me more than
the giants?

Against the giants
You guided me.

Gave me specific stones
for my sling
my strength, I knew
was in You.

Now
I have come to silence,
to stillness.

Here,
I must pray
for hunger
lest I erect idols
or be satisfied and
gloat over slain giants.

Let my soul
rest only in You
and not slip into the
comfort of the stillness.

I was reading back on some old posts and I smiled at my zeal a year ago. In all honesty, I've lost some of it. God got me past emotional experiences and that is a good thing but I sense that I have let too many "good" things keep my focus on God's best. It's not a matter of doing certain things, sin is a reality that hast to be dealt with in the depths of my heart. Tozer made a good point about people who were faithful to God, what would have happened to history if they had settled for a haphazard walk with God? What if Noah wasn't faithful to God? The show would have been a lot different. God wants a Church of people like that, every step we compromise with Christ someone else is going to pay for. I was listening to the radio the other day and I heard the Evanescence song "Bring Me to Life." I don't know what their beliefs are but can anyone tell me what they're crying out for in these lyrics? "How can you see into my eyes like open doors /Leading you down into my core /Where I've become so numb without a soul/ My spirit sleeping somewhere cold/ Until you find it there and lead it back home/Wake me up inside...call my name and save me from the dark/Bid my blood to run/Before I come undone/Save me from the nothing I've become." Tell me, who is this singer talking to whether she knows it or not? Tell me, anyone, that the void that this person professes to have can be satisfied by anything other than Jesus. Jesus wasn't kidding when He said the harvest was ready but the laborers were few. No one can make a connection between that deep need every person has and to Jesus except God, the Word says none come to Christ unless the Father draws them. How often do I (I was going to say "we" but I'll leave it to the reader to decide whether he/she does this) want to receive from God just enough to be okay, enough to get by when God longs to give us so much that we have rivers of living water flowing from us (John 7:38).

To truly work with God is a privilege and I often lose sight of that. Woe to me if I lose my wonder and I must confess that I have felt it slipping. The wonder of the cross, the indescribable wonder that God became man and offered Himself as a silent victim to be humiliated and killed to defeat death for our sins. Satan rebelled and God cast him out, we rebelled and God immdetiately made a divine plan to get us back that would cost Him more than we could ever conceive. The bible doesn't talk about compromise, it says "anything that is not of faith is sin" (Romans 13). We have two options: walk in the flesh or the Spirit. If we're not striving for the very best, than we're not following Jesus. He wasn't kidding when He said we have to lose our lives to gain them, that means my whole life. We live in a society that is built for comfort and I really believe that times will come when are comforts are taken from us because God sets up "preappointed times and boundaries" so that we would "yearn for Him and know that He is not far from us" (Acts 17). We yearn for God when we need Him, when we have nothing else and I honestly believe times are coming when we won't have as much comfort as we rely on now and where will we be with God when that happens? The writer of that Evanescence song knows he/she desparately needs something, have we forgotten how much we still need Jesus and how much more other people do?